Hey, it isn't so bad over here!

I stepped out of the shower today to hear the phone ringing. It was Fleur and she left a message saying that Geoff had died at about 9:30 this morning. I had slept through the whole thing without an inkling. I guess I didn't need to know.

While I was doing yoga this afternoon, before the phone call, my mind was wandering all over the place and I had to keep yanking it back again. By the time I got to my final Om, I wanted to crawl out of my own skin. Standing in the shower I had the sudden thought that it probably wasn't my emotion, and that probably the fear I was feeling earlier this week, in fact on the day I went to see Geoff, wasn't all mine either. No wonder it felt so over the top! You'd think I'd have learned this stuff by now.

When I got upstairs this afternoon I could feel that the sensations of my yoga session were Susan's and not Fleur's. Fleur was actually quite peaceful and was making the phone calls she had decided to make today. When Aidan came home from his friend's house just before dinner, he was batting a purple balloon around the living room. He had all of us batting it back to him amidst a lot of giggling. It think that was the joyful energy of Geoff's spirit (purple) being freed.

I could feel Geoff hovering around by the front door and on the front porch so I mentally suggested that he come into the living room. I could feel his relief and his joy as soon as I felt him come into the room, and I told Fleur and Susan what I was sensing. Then he dipped his head towards me and said, "I beg your pardon," - a reference to my having told him that it's fine on the other side and his not believing me.

I've been sitting in my suite this evening thinking about him. I lit a candle and placed it beside a card he made for me and a vase that he had chosen for me as a birthday gift a few years ago. The energy feels so much more peaceful now. Since Geoff was on my mind, I asked the ethers if he was down here with me. I thought that he might not be because all his loved ones are upstairs.

To my surprise, he came through clearly. He thanked me for all that I have done for him and for Fleur and Aidan. Then he told me that he would make sure I was taken care of, to which I replied that I thought there were quite a few beings who are taking care of me. He showed me how he and others are lifting the gridwork of fear and pain off the house and that the energy would improve right away.

He feels like a different person now that he has passed to the other side. I don't know how long he will stay around, or if he has anything left to do, but he has lost all the tightness of fear and worry that he used to carry around on his person, like a scarab carries it's shell for armour, or a hockey-player his protective gear. He has lightened up and it brings to mind how he behaved at the first one of Aidan's birthday parties when he dressed up like a fool and played magician with all the little kids. He now carries the joy and delight of that kind of silliness. Thank God!

God bless you Geoffrey. Bonne chance.